I haven't been public lately. Still working, still saving, still interviewing. Other aspects of life have been subject to change, but that's not why I'm out here today.
I just went and read some old entries, mostly circa 2003. The one post that really got to me was the "letters to many johns." The way I perceived my friends, people I loved is still very much the same and yet so radically different I wonder who they are (& who I
And there are a few who have dropped off the radar for various reasons and I still miss them. I think I miss who they were then
, not so much them as people overall. Or maybe, as I said before, the way I perceived them.
There are these times that I could just live in forever:
Running across streets, sitting in restaurants, flying to other countries, getting lost, driving at all hours of the night, drinking one too many glasses of wine, holding hands in the winter, swimming in the summer, everything.
I am lucky enough to say I had about three different families during the last few years. I had the Acorn family which has evolved but the ones I love the most are still here. I had the eclectic gay/lesbian family that started my freshman year and radically altered but no one else could have gotten me through some of those times. And finally, I had the family I created at the end of the world - senior year. (Yes, that was a deliberate homage to A HOME AT THE END OF THE WORLD.) The most unexpected people from the most unexpected places.
Even with my losses, I've still come out smiling. Somehow...( Collapse )